Colony of Losers- Fuck Stigma and Mental Illness, I'm like 25

Surviving your Quarter Life Crisis and becoming an adult

Poetry

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Not only does Michael write emo stories about depression and his passion for his first love he also writes poems about it.  Michael has been part of the Halifax Slam scene for the last five years and also put out a rap album.  Feel the need to get a little more Mike Kimber?  Enjoy the slow powerful thrust of his poetry into your soul’s vagina.

BECAUSE I DO

Until I was 25, I didn’t know what it was like for someone else’s heartbeat to tell me I was alive

Everything I ever did I had to try

This has been as unconscious as breathing

Dreaming more than sleeping

Laughter as accidental as falling in love with you

I am clumsy but never managed to trip like this

The thing with you

Is I don’t have to try

Because I do

One of the first things you ever said was love poems were like tattoos

To try to capture what captures you

At that moment I was already in love with you

And I think you knew

I can’t tell you what it is about you

It’s not because you are beautiful, though I say it all the time because I am truthful

Or so funny, you make my side’s split, or because we are both romantics, masters of comedic bullshit, because of the action, the way you are with adjectives and verbs, the way our insanity calms my nerves,

It’s hard for me

To get beyond my artistry into my heart beat

This is not cause and effect

Polar bears cross continents for their love’s scent

Beyond the borders of common sense

And I waited and waited, wondering what this empty feeling meant

Collecting cases based on evidence

Heartbreaks where I was able to collect all the fragments

This lack in the way I could communicate, these loves I would fabricate

Love stories like ours need fate

You feel like home because someone lets you escape

I can’t tell you why I love you

Because it’s beyond what reason can do

I know it’s what I would choose

But love doesn’t ask permission

And I didn’t feel it till I met you

Not because I wanted to

Just because I do

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    Michael Kimber is a 26-year-old journalist who suffered a nervous breakdown on November 3rd, 2009. On March 28th, 2010 when he recovered from mental illness, he began writing a blog called Colony-of-losers. About falling on your face to figure out who you are and the hilarious antics of a blond jew. What began with a few friends and his mother reading has become a cult phenomenon, averaging 10,000 views a week, receiving praise from Commonwealth Award Winner Shandi Mitchell and many others. On, November 3rd, 2010, the one year anniversary of his mental breakdown he signed with Anne McDermid and Associates, the largest literary agency in Canada. In a year he went from wearing pajamas, making his couch depression HQ to leaving his hometown for the Toronto, where he exclusively wears business suits and the armor of ancient Greeks. Don't worry, he's still choking on the feet he contently sticks in his mouth and making moments awkward just by being part of them. During these struggles he met other talented bastards and drew them into his circle. Peter Diamond became his illustrator. Patrick Campbell his video editor and part time photographer. He recently added the incredibly talented John Packman as Colony of Losers Toronto photographer. Without the support of the Colony of Losers, Michael Kimber would be nothing. Welcome to the losers and the success that comes from utter and complete failure. You aren’t alone. Follow him on twitter.com/colonyoflosersand twitter.com/quimbo. If you’d like to hire him for a public speaking engagement for mental health events in Toronto, like to arrange an interview, offer millions to publish his book or for another reason contact Michael please email him. And join his facebook Colony of Losers.

    Really obvious disclaimer:
    I’m not a trained psychologist. Just a fellow traveler. If you need help seek it from the professionals. The Canadian Mental Health Association provides a help locator. You can find crisis resources provided by the Canadian Association for Suicide Prevention. If you are in the states check here. It will give you services by zip code. I’d also recommend checking out Mindyourmind.ca. I think they do great work and have been a help to me personally.

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